i've put my trust in u
pushed as far as i can go
for all this
there's only one thing u shud know..
i really love u..
it doesnt matter if u hair looks pretty or u wore something nice
i see u as a angel oblivious of what the devils sense
even when i myself cries
i put myself back to pretense..
knowing u would be alright too i "were"
it hurts me most to see u upset.
i cannot take this anymore
all these words
like thorns in my tounge..
i need a little room to break myself away from all this
i need to just.
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP WHEN IM TALKING TO U!!
im talking to myself
most of the time
tears bring me no luck at all..
luck to love..
to endevour all me thoughts in just one shot..
to erase with just one rub...
to delete with just one click
im not comfortable..
this place is empty anyways.. nobody's reading this freaking piece of shit..
so why should i not be comfortable..
i only mused myself to believe that this is never ending.
i can believe that this crap im writing makes no sense at all.
dont need to bother reading it..
or even to type it out in the first off all..
make sense is i were to say that im wanting attention by having this blog.
but how much haved i written these sin all in here..
i love u.
i wanna be ur lover..
i wanna hold u..
in my arms, hands, shoulder.
i'll bear ur weight..
rather than bear my pain..
u teach me alot of lessons
to hideaway
to be polite
to be sympathetic
to just sit tight and feel the pressure
i want to take action
to prove that im not to be judged
not to be wrong
im not outspoken.
yet, i voiced out..
would u?
i dont care what ppl think..
as long as ppl think im not the typical malay
like the mat arips
i just hate them
hate all this freaking malay extras
that just ruin us malay ppl who do nth wrong
i hate all these aunties.. these chinese racists.. these indian acts of despise,
just becoz im brown, or im malay
put me in place with all these motherfuckers
fuck u
fuck all of u
if u'all think u all are a bunch of heroic revelations
who can transform into one giant so u can kill the stupid, or the innocent, or anybody who irritates u..
y do run away from the police then?
if u ppl really dare, why not speak up to the authority.
u all are the same.. u know u ppl are wrong someways. racists, mats, wateva..
u think u're so good..
i rather die than live in all this propaganda shit.
pain.. so much..
dont even care about the welfare of the world
the earth is even dying.. doesnt this show how mush u all bully mother earth
must we remind issit..
must i fuckingly remind to u all
must i really wear earth colours everyday to show how it hurts me most
i guessed u all cant wait fot the end of the world..
fastgame eh..
so foolish and selfish..
wants all of earth to die quickly
so u can recive judgement day faster..
guess what,
u need to be analysed before u can face the judgement
bad analysis, bad death, bad.. bad.. HELL..
i wish u go to hell u motherfuckers.
go.. and throw ur life there..
i love u..
cant bear it all
wish ur here.. to hold me tight.
so i will embrace u till the end..
i will hold u,
i will hold u
i will hold u
i will hold u..
im here..
afraid to loose me?
me too..
so love me
and i will love u back even more.
so i wont get lost.
backs..
im like traveling alot in sch.. go here, go there, get supplies..
anyone knows how to design interior space?
coz.. I NEED HELP..
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my new project now deals with the interior spatial design of a showflat..
its called HORTICULTURE PARK..
so call a showflat that showcase diferent designs of landscaping one's condo and stuff like that.
so, like, i dunno how to define interior spaces and design them..
my analysis is like shit. haha.
so, peeps out there who knows about designing interior spaces, please do help me!
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in case for those who dunno, sch of BE is having a carnival this coming wednesday 18th at the space beside fdcrt 1.
there will be karaoke showdown and jamming performance.. one band to look is MASTAR.. i think they are performing at the BE carnival. they play MUSEy kind of songs..
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hmm..
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im soory for being so stupid yesterday.. i guessed i kinda need some time to kill my stupidity.i love u in every way i can.. but these thoughts keep bugging me.. i wish guys never have eroticity or fetishness when looking at u gerls. i wished that also gerls dont wear so skimpy.. its giving us guys the wrong impression.
i wanna love u.. not indulge u..
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Now,
mum says i have to choose:
1."cinta pompuan"
(love my gerl)
2."cinta gitar"
(love my guitar)
3."cinta pelajaran"
(love education)
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why cant i just love all of them.. these things means alot to me as a whole.
i love my gerl.. she's my motivation, my half soul.
i love my guitar..she's my passion, my music.
i love my guitar..she's my knowledge, my future income.
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neither emotional nor jiwang
its "sheeesh"..
I NEED STEROIDS!!!
WADDAFAK!!!
haha. cant keep up with myself this days
busy here, busy there..
always sticking around with youknowwho..
finally i get to go jamming.. been waiting for KOF.. but now news..
haha.. shockwave rules!
we played a few cover songs..
What i've done - Linkin Park
Already dead - Siverstein
Blurry - Puddle of Mudd
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
EMO.. yeah.. but im no emo kid.. jus jamming it for fun.
im for shockwave, we are joining the BE gig.
WOOHOOO! wish us lucks man!!
i'll posts again later.. be right back..
